Today I tackled one mile at a time until I reached 13.1. However, half-marathons, marathons, and any other road race doesn’t simply end at the finish line. The goal setting and persistence it takes to run and finish a race is something that remains with me in my everyday life. I’ve have a greater sense of clarity and trust myself because I run.
At one point after mile 10 during today’s half marathon I was suddenly overcome with emotion. All that I have gone through and accomplished these last couple of months finally hit me – I am surviving because I am strong, I am kind, I am grateful, I am Diné and I have the blood of my ancestors running through my veins. The same mental characteristics needed to run and not give up are the same characteristics needed in life. I’ve learned life is like running – you get out of it what you put into it. I had filled my life with fear. I had flooded my life with doubt. As a result that is exactly what I was getting back – fear and doubt. Being honest about my fears then facing them down, acknowledging then divorcing my doubts has reignited my toughness, my creativity, and my generosity. I have reignited faith in myself and the ability to dream on a grander scale.
When I run, I will myself to be the best I can be. The courage and endurance that it takes to get through a long run has seeped into my life in every way. I am able to motivate myself when I am down. I am able to endure difficult times with resiliency, and kindness. I have learned to take the measure of myself, and no longer allow others to define who I am.
I am Diné…and will always be Diné!
I am a daughter…and will always be a daughter!
I am a grandaughter…and will always be a granddaughter!
I am a niece…and will always be a niece!
I am a mama…and will always be a mama!
I am a sister…and will always be a sister!
I am an auntie…and will always be an auntie!
I am a friend…and will always be a friend!
I am a student…and will always be a student!
I am a teacher…and will always be a teacher!
I am a runner…and will always be a runner!
Wishing you all love with all of my being,